Tonight, I watched my brother and sister-in-law's 2 young'ins. The wanted romance from the last 8 months of yesterdays came to a screeching halt last night. "We can be friends" was the last thing I remember... then I cried myself to sleep.
I miss his texts, as confusing as they were. I miss his calls, even though they left me wondering - and wanting him more. But - I did it. I put a stop to it. To the mind games, intended or unintended. And thank God he was honest enough to be straight forward with me.
But tonight, as I sit here in silence, I wonder - who is it that's out there thinking of me tonight? Who is it whose world I've changed for the better? My phone sits silent next to me. Do I need constant interruption to feel important? Tonight is a meditative night. I need my meditation music and my breathing... and I need to focus on me. The me that *I* need to love - first and foremost.
And so, onward I blindly stumble...
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