Inspiration

I found a bit of inspiration today. I told myself that if I got my clothes packed up and my room a good bit tidier than it had been, I'd reward myself with a trip to see "Avatar" finally. A lot came to me in those two-plus hours. First, what a great display of how oblivious we are to the world around us. We take advantage of every plant, animal and sadly - even people different from ourselves. A large part of our population has no peripheral vision... and by that, I do not mean sight. They can't see past the path that's laid right in front of them and they fail to see that if they look left, the animals have volumes to teach us. If we look right, we can absorb and allow lives different from our own to transform us a step closer to the people we have potential of being. Instead, for many, it's easier to degrade those who recognize the potential lessons.

I also recognized - about myself - that I continue to allow fear to rule my life. Fear of failure, fear of commitment, fear of humiliation. I half-heartedly approach many things in my life and fail to give it all I REALLY have to offer... for one reason. Fear. I subconsciously look for distractions to keep me from accomplishing goals I set for myself because I'm afriad I will fail miserably - which further proves how imperfect I am. And I'm all too familiar with these imperfections.

And yes, even my wavering choice in religion was slapped right in my lap tonight. After being a very conservative Christian my entire life, it became more evident than ever that Yes - there IS a God. I can't logically explain how culture after culture, year after decade, after century, after millenium have a burning desire to worship a being higher that itself. And although each is significantly different, they're all relatively similar. Many theologies, values, and morals borrowed - one from the other. I continue to stray from any faith, despite that being the force that I know pushes me forward in a multitude of directions.

.....Step one.... Just today, meditate on this power greater than I. Tomorrow, just be aware and take one day, hour, minute at a time. IN THAT, WE APPRECIATE OUR NOW, OUR EVERY BLESSING.

Be Blessed. I know I am.